In a word… crazy. That’s the only way to describe it. I’m still in shock, actually, and I may be for some time.
Imagine, if you will, that two people, both of whom you care for, end up becoming… involved. Normally, this might be a good thing. But then, it’s not quite so simple. See, one of them, you have unresolved issues with. Serious unresolved issues. Compound that with the fact that you feel a strange sense of protectiveness for the person, because they’ve been… well… kind of screwed over before.
Does this leave room for any trust whatsoever in the other party involved. Not that you don’t trust them, because you do… but maybe not in this particular instance. It’s hard to say, and you can’t really get down to the nuts and bolts of it because you’re still hung up and confused by the whole incredulity of the situation in the first place.
Huh. I sound like the crazy one.
Some of you know exactly what I’m talking about, and everyone else doesn’t really need to, so I’m not going to spell things out any more than I already have.
It’s just crazy, I tell you.
Yeah, crazy all the way to the bank.
So anyway, I think I wish them the best. I find it hard to do that, since I find it hard to believe that they’ve become involved in the first place, and I find it hard to believe that it could last, given what I know of them both and other… history, and I find it hard to believe that when random events such as this happen in the world, somehow we haven’t figured out how to cure cancer or AIDS or even faster than light travel. You’d think that with this kind of chaos going on, we should have accidentally discovered some of this stuff by now.
But I guess not.
Anyway. I think that about says it all. Hopefully I haven’t been too negative. All things considered, I think I’m handling it pretty well. I just have to go with the flow. And take the time to stop and smell the… flowers.
“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 – 1900)
Posted by John @ 09/18/03 11:51 AM